Friday, February 21, 2020

Blog Journal One

Perseverance

Perseverance is something I have been taught and valued from a very young age. I have been in every sport you can think of; softball, soccer, tennis, basketball, or basically anything you can think of. In any of these sports, having the quality of perseverance is important in every game. I play basketball, and in a specific game we played against the best team in the state. To our surprise, we end up going into overtime with them, and then on to sudden death. The other team first took a shot and my teammate rebounded the ball, immediately passing it up the court next teammate. I ran as fast as I could to the end of the court and I set my feet as I called for the ball. My teammate passed it to me, I shot, and the ball went in the hoop. We won the game! If it wasn’t for my teammates never giving up, we wouldn’t have won the game.
Perseverance is defined as the persistence in doing something despite how difficult it will be to achieve success. This is shown in sports, the workplace, school, and everyday life. Showing continued effort for success is an extremely important quality to have in any situation and will get you very far in life. Each person goes through their own individual daily struggles, but the essence of perseverance is finding the strength to keep going even if you feel like you will fail. The moment you decide to give up is the moment you truly fail.
For the first time, I have been placed in the accelerated math class. Throughout the semester, I’ve been struggling a lot to keep up with the smart kids. I specifically remember one section being especially tough for me and I don’t understand the material. I decided to stay after class to ask my teacher some questions, and I started crying because I have been so frustrated and I didn’t understand the material she was trying to explain. My teacher immediately took me into the other room and sat down with me as she calmed me down. I remember her being so supportive and told me that I was in that class for a reason and if I kept working hard and never gave up, I would be rewarded. We then made a plan to stay after school a few days a week to study together so I can get extra help. She gave me motivation to not give up on myself so easily. As I studied harder, I ended up with a good grade and more confidence in school overall.
The word “perseverance” has so many meanings to it and is an admirable quality, but not so easy to obtain. It takes a lot of patience and strength to overcome struggles and keep moving forward. When I view someone who is persistent throughout their life, they are automatically a tough person in my eyes. You create a habit out of it, and you need to have a lot of self discipline which isn’t so easy.
Up until this point, a really significant moment in my life has been receiving my license. I was counting the days until my sixteenth birthday, and when I finally got my learner’s permit, I wanted to drive all the time. I had gotten pretty good at it and when the test neared I generally felt pretty confident. My dad suggested we should go practice parking for a few weeks up until the test and thankfully we did. The first couple of weeks, I was absolutely terrible and ended up in tears at the end of almost every time we went to practice. I remember telling my dad the week before my scheduled test that I didn’t even want to take the test anymore because there was no point; I was never going to be able to pass since I couldn’t park. He told me parking takes a lot of practice and that I couldn’t just stop trying, so we went to practice a lot more. As I continued to practice a lot more consistently for the next week, I was starting to be able to park without hitting the poles as much. Although I wanted to give up, I ended up parking perfectly on the test so I was really thankful for the amount of practice I put into it.

Thursday, February 20, 2020

Blog Journal 2

My dogs ears are big and they stick out from the top of his head. The fur is extra long on top and it moves as he does. They are the softest part of his body. They point up when he is on high alert. When he is feeling cuddly, he will put his ears down as a signal to pet his head.

“For real?”

“No, for fake.”

Snow. Sled. Trees. Climb. Chocolate chip cookies. Hot chocolate. Littlest Pet Shop. Warmth. Fireplace. Mittens. Hats. Scarves. Hugs from dad. Snow forts. Kitchen. Yellow ladle. Silver bowl. Barcelona. Airplanes. Piano. Concerts. Long distances. Anxiety. Taxis. Busy city. Playing cards. Long coats. Travel.

A smokey smell reminds me of my neighbor’s house. Everytime I would go there, there’s a instant smell of cigarette smoke. It’s more of a faint smell, as if someone smoked in there the day before. One of the last times that I remember being there I was really young, I was left alone and I dropped a pair of scissors on my pinky toe and it split open. My mom had to come pick me up.


Sunday, February 9, 2020

Chapter 14

A Night’s Sleep

Unbothered, I have unknowingly entered in a completely different state
Faster and faster, I fall further asleep
Deeper and deeper,
I have lost all control
Nothing makes me wonder more than my dreams, truly
Although my eyes are shut, my mind opens like a book
while the pages keep turning as the story expands
The colors jump off of the pages convincing me of it’s truth
The illusion of my stories makes me wonder if this is reality
My unconscious perception of the world is revealed
I wake up and I write them all down in a journal
I never want to forget what my mind comes up with while I am asleep

Chapter 11

All I Have 

All I have is this photograph
It shows me what I have lost,
it painfully yells in my ear and
it never lets me forget what I have once felt
I carefully examine the faded picture with curled edges
but I only look at arms that wrapped around me;
I can see his fingertips pressing into my skin,
I can still feel them, just as I can still hear his smile
that once beamed with radiation telling me
I will never be unprotected.
The photograph screams at me,
“What do you see?”
I see my friend who was once with me,
and now all I have is this photograph

Chapter 10

The Drive

It’s a long drive up the hill,
while curiosity overflows for what awaits
We have only been there for thirty minutes,
but it feels like hours have gone by. The oldest one amongst us
immediately takes us under her wing, protecting us
It can only go such a long way

Pondering life and where I am throughout this drive
My thoughts inhabit me for this short moment
Warm, lights thoughts
they float through my head like a balloon
Everything feels okay in this moment

Chapter 9

My Life

Is a feather
Slowly, lightly drifting through the air
My bones are soft
My mind is fragile
With such delicacy do I move; I am lifted through silence
Floating high up over the tall mountains, as I watch
them standing there
I daze through the atmosphere and
the wind quickly caught my face, reminding me 
where I needed to go. 
I am constantly being dropped on the ground 
But I am fall softly,
I am never to be heard